The Wait...
So the wait has begun... We transferred 3 embryos about a week ago and Alex & I have been praying ever since. Non-stop. Almost every morning I do some energy-work to the pictures of our 3 embryos that sits in our bedroom on top of one of those purple energy plates, with a crystal on it, next to the cd-player playing non-stop Om Namah Shivayah (recommended by our good friends who play it in the background to ward off evil spirits, and to help growing embryos), and then continue to offer my thanks to god for getting us pregnant. We both do alot of spiritual work to try to make these things grow strongly & healthily.
Anyway, the problem is that I'm getting confused with respect to when to be positive and when to FEEL and go into my emotions. This turned into an argument last night. Actually, this issue comes up often. I think I focus on being positive as much as possible when it comes to something that happen in the future, with respect to the manifestation concept. What we think, we create (delayed, of course). I've had many examples of this in my life, and I'm getting the feeling that this phenonema is quickening. The Feeling side of me that wants to get melancholic, moody, depressed, etc. - perhaps that should be reserved for other occasions. The problem is that there is alot of overlap. For instance, I may get depressed about money. Because I know thinking & feeling bad about myself & situation will make things worse (with respect to Universal Attraction), I always stop myself. But, at the same time, I recognize that we're here to also have a human experience, to feel, to feel pain as well as great joy.
Then there is the issue with my wife, or others for that matter. If they're depressed and they want to be consoled, do I try to console in my typical pollyanna way or maybe just stay quiet, listen, acknowledge, or perhaps - GASP! share my own pain for a moment. Lately I'm starting to think that if what we think manifests with a delay of sorts, then that gives me enough time to get into the feeling of whatever needs to be felt, whether for myself or for others, and then later on I can get grounded, clear my thoughts & then project my positive creative intentions out to the collective unconsciousness.
Anyway, the problem is that I'm getting confused with respect to when to be positive and when to FEEL and go into my emotions. This turned into an argument last night. Actually, this issue comes up often. I think I focus on being positive as much as possible when it comes to something that happen in the future, with respect to the manifestation concept. What we think, we create (delayed, of course). I've had many examples of this in my life, and I'm getting the feeling that this phenonema is quickening. The Feeling side of me that wants to get melancholic, moody, depressed, etc. - perhaps that should be reserved for other occasions. The problem is that there is alot of overlap. For instance, I may get depressed about money. Because I know thinking & feeling bad about myself & situation will make things worse (with respect to Universal Attraction), I always stop myself. But, at the same time, I recognize that we're here to also have a human experience, to feel, to feel pain as well as great joy.
Then there is the issue with my wife, or others for that matter. If they're depressed and they want to be consoled, do I try to console in my typical pollyanna way or maybe just stay quiet, listen, acknowledge, or perhaps - GASP! share my own pain for a moment. Lately I'm starting to think that if what we think manifests with a delay of sorts, then that gives me enough time to get into the feeling of whatever needs to be felt, whether for myself or for others, and then later on I can get grounded, clear my thoughts & then project my positive creative intentions out to the collective unconsciousness.
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My wife and I struggled too. Thank G-d after 5 years we made it! Good luck
-Daniel
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Dan Eisenberg, at 5:13 PM
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